Chapter 14: A Tormented Soul
Inu-yasha, Miroku and Sango had found out that Kagome was the one behind the late attacks. Kagome, afraid of their reactions took off into the forest, Inu-yasha soon followed after.
Will Inu-yasha help Kagome out of this dilemma?
Kagome ran in the rain, she didn’t know if it was the rain or her tears that flowed down her cheeks. “I can’t go back to them, I won’t…” Her clothes were ripped by the sharp edges of the trees and thorns which scratched her too, but she didn’t care.
She ran a little more then tripped falling on her chest into the muddy ground, she didn’t bother to move and sobbed silently in the rain, but the rain started to die down. She then noticed a small stream not far from her and inched her way toward it.
As she got there she took a good look at herself, she could only see half of her reflection, she touched the part that wasn’t showing and started to softly giggle out of idiocy. “Heh, look at me, I’m not the same person anymore, Inu-yasha probably finds me ugly.” Kagome could just remember the look in his eyes when he saw her. “Inu-yasha must truly hate me now,” Kagome was on the verge of crying again. “It was my fault that I killed those people, this was all me.”
She clenched her fist in anger, and then she snapped. “I get it now; I’ve read it in those fictional books about vampires, once you’re bitten by a vampire, you’ll become one yourself; how could I not think of that sooner?” As she punched the ground. “I was such an idiot back then, how could I have possibly thought Inu-yasha would fall in love with me.” Kagome looked back at herself in the stream and saw Kura with a smug look on his face appear, she frowned and splashed the water erasing the image and clamped her hands on her face. “What do I do; I can’t even go home at this rate, I might kill people there too.” Kagome then started to cry again. “I’ll never be a normal girl again!”
Kagome’s ears then picked up something ahead. Her heart began to pound louder as the steps were coming closer.
Inu-yasha had appeared panting in search of Kagome. “Kagome, where are you?!” Inu-yasha called.
Kagome was up in the trees watching him. “He’s looking for me?”
Inu-yasha stopped when he noticed that someone was kneeling in this spot near the stream. He kneeled down to it. “It must have been Kagome; damn if it wasn’t raining I could track down her scent.”
“Why is he looking for me, doesn’t he hate me?” Kagome wondered. She was going to jump down to him but she stopped and looked away. “I can’t go back to him, I’m afraid what he’ll say to me; it could be something good, but it can also be something bad.” She relaxed back on the tree’s trunk. “I won’t face him, sorry, Inu-yasha,” Kagome’s thoughts paused when she heard Inu-yasha talk to himself and looked back down at him.
“Dammit! Kagome is suffering and I’m the one to blame for it, I should have never left you, Kagome, it’s my fault that you’re living in pain, it’s my fault for letting you go,” Inu-yasha punched the tree she was hiding in making it vibrate. “Come back Kagome!”
The vibrations shook the tree and since the tree was wet her foot slipped and she began to fall down and shrieked.
Inu-yasha had left the spot he was at and was about to leave when he heard the thud behind him. He turned around and there she was on the ground on her chest. Inu-yasha figured she had fallen from the tree and ran up to her.
Kagome got up to her knees rubbing her head and froze when she saw Inu-yasha approaching her. “Kagome,”
Kagome got up quickly and was about to run when Inu-yasha caught her arm, but she didn’t dare face him and stood there.
“Wait, Kagome.” Inu-yasha spoke. “Please… let me go.” She pleaded quietly. “Kagome, why did you run away?” He asked. “Isn’t it obvious, I’ve hurt people and my friends, isn’t it best to leave?” Kagome answered, still not facing him. “No it’s not, Kagome we won’t leave you behind, we-” His expression changed to an ashamed one. “We knew about it, about your transformation, we’re not blaming you for what youve done, that wasn’t you.”
“You all knew and you never told me?” Kagome spoke getting louder. “We couldn’t, you would have been miserable.” “Oh so, keeping it away from me and letting me find out on my ownb wasn't going to make me miserable; sorry to tell you it didn’t work.” Kagome noted. “If you told me maybe I could have controlled myself I could have--” Kagome didn’t know what to say. Inu-yasha felt guilty and loosened his grip on her arm.
“It doesn’t matter…” Inu-yasha raised his head when she spoke up. “I would have done the same thing; it’s no use blaming you all.” Silence then grew in, leaving them both lost in words. Kagome sighed and slumped her head slightly. “You guys must hate me of what I’ve done what I’ve turned into,” Still not facing him. “No, no, Kagome we could never hate, I could never hate you.” Inu-yasha corrected. “If it’s anyone’s fault it’d be mine, I’m the one who left you.”
“You don’t get it, it doesn’t matter whose fault it is, the only matter is that I’ve killed those people it’s me who’s responsible and I’ve thought for sometime that you all suspected it was me, the looks in your eyes, that really hurt me; I couldn’t bare facing those looks again that’s why I ran away, that’s why I’m not going to return back home; I don’t fit in anywhere, I’m not a vampire and I’m not human it’s just me now, alone.” Kagome had tears running down her cheeks.
Inu-yasha’s heart sank when he heard all of this and finally realised her heart was aching, her soul was being tormented. Inu-yasha had a flashback from then.
“As soon as human blood touches her lips she will crave for more and more until she can’t control herself and can’t be stopped unless she is killed. Heh, you should have just let me finish her off so she didn’t have to live in such miserable half-life, she would have been much more happier if she stayed with me as my bride once she realizes she can’t fit in with anyone.”
-End of Flashback-
Inu-yasha growled to himself. “Damn him.” “I have to go now, goodbye.” Kagome spoke. Inu-yasha grabbed her hand sternly. “Don’t leave.” “Let go of me; I have to do this, in order for you guys not to suffer for my sake anymore, just leave be!” She yelled trying to pull away from him. “Don’t make it harder than it already is.” “Leaving us will be the cause of us suffering!” Inu-yasha yelled back. Kagome mustered up a gust of wind from her body pushing him back nearly making him lose his grip.
“Stop it Kagome, you’re acting stupid as usual!” Inu-yasha shouted. “You always do this when you to go back home or want to do it your way and I always give in, well I’m not giving in this time, so just forget it!” He frowned gripping her stronger again. “You’re being so stubborn, you just don’t get how I feel!” “So leaving is what’s going to make you happy, and being alone will make you even happier?” Inu-yasha responded. "I don't what you mean that I don't know what you feel, I'm a half-demon, I guess you forgot about that."
Kagome’s eyes widened as her wind started to calm down. “If you want to think that you're the only one whose life sucks now, so be it, but running away to me is the most stupid idea I’ve heard from you yet.” Inu-yasha snorted. “I thought you were stronger than that, I guess I was wrong.” Kagome was quiet then replied. “I haven't forgotten, it's just... I don’t want to risk hurting my friends... I don’t want to risk hurting you...now don’t you see, it only makes sense if I--”
“Dammit!” Inu-yasha turned her around and pulled her into his arms making the wind stop completely. “As if we didn’t know that; Kagome, we don’t care what you did, I won’t let you live through this alone like I did; do you want Kura to win?” Kagome gasped and gradually relaxed in his arms. “Oh Inu-yasha, I don’t want to be alone, I don’t want to leave you, I just want to be a normal human girl again.” She cried.
Inu-yasha wrapped his arms around her comfortingly. “I’m sorry I put you into this mess, I promised to help turn you back, we will help you, just please don’t leave us anymore.” Kagome nodded. “Arigato, Inu-yasha,”
Shippo sat in front of the door waiting for his friends to return with Kirara by his side. “I wonder when they’ll get back it’s so late.” He yawned. “Do you want to sleep?” Naru asked. “No I’m going to wait till my friends get back.” He declined. “Alright, there will be a spot set for you when you’re ready.” She smiled. “Thank you.”
Sango and Miroku then walked in, in slience. “Hey, you two are back and together.” Shippo smirked then noticed Inu-yasha and Kagome weren’t with them. “Where’s the other two?” Sango and Miroku looked at each other. “W-well, there--"
“Here!” Kagome announced as both her and Inu-yasha entered the inn. “Kagome-chan!” Sango gleamed giving her a hug. “I’m so happy you came back, we were so worried.” “Sorry to worry you.” “Kagome-sama, it is most pleasant to have you stay with us.” Miroku smiled. Sango looked at Inu-yasha. “I’m glad you brought her back.” “Well I promised didn’t I?” He snorted. Shippo faced Kirara. “Did we miss something?” Kirara shrugged.
“Sorry to interrupt but all your beds are set, you want me to dry your clothes?” Naru offered. Inu-yasha, Sango and Kagome turned red. “Uh we have no change of clothing, we’ll all be naked.” Sango replied. “I wouldn’t mind.” Miroku spoke imaging both of the girls unclothed, but then remembered Inu-yasha. “Don’t worry, we run an inn remember, we have a few robes in the closet.” Naru giggled. “That would be great.” Kagome smiled.
Naru came back with the warm robes and went away with the wet clothing. “You should all get to bed now, you all must be exhausted.” “Yes I know I am.” Sango nodded and yawned. “Not me, I’m fine.” Kagome noted. They all faced her. Kagome’s tone changed. “But I’ll go to bed.” She stated and walked away.
Inu-yasha followed her. “Hey.” Kagome stopped. “Yes?” “Don’t let them get to you.” Inu-yasha said. Kagome smiled at him. “I won’t, don’t worry.” She reassured and continued on to the girls bedroom.
Inu-yasha stood and watched her enter the room. “Kagome, I will save you I will not let you suffer like I did I promise.”
-End of Chapter-