ETERNALLY DESTINED: SECRET SANTA 2012 by ED Staff
Past Featured StorySummary: Fanfiction gifts created for members of our Deviant Art group, Eternally Destined. Visit the first chapter of this series for a link to ED's 2013 calendar!
Categories: Fables Characters: InuYasha, Kagome
Genres: Alternate Universe, Angst, Comedy, Drama, Family, Fluff, Hentai, Hurt/Comfort, Oneshot, Romance, Slice of Life, WAFF
Warnings: Explicit Sex, Language, Mild Sexual Situations, OOC/Out of Character, Pregnancy
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 13 Completed: No Word count: 43661 Read: 6317 Published: December 22, 2012 Updated: January 02, 2013
FOR DANGERESQUE by ED Staff
Reflections

"Fuck them!” Inuyasha mumbled as he stormed out of the house into the blowing snow. Leaving behind his soon to be former friends, Inuyasha ignored the well of pain that began to settle in his chest, choosing to focus instead on his anger. Pulling at his hastily thrown on outerwear, Inuyasha debated where to go. Back home was out. His brother was there and the last thing he needed to hear was an "I told you so". Sesshomaru made no secret about thinking his human friends were useless and while Sesshomaru thought the crush his hanyou brother had on Kagome was interesting, he expressed doubts at her maturity for a serious relationship. After this disaster of a night, Inuyasha could feel that seed of doubt taking root.

"What is Sess was right after all?"

Shaking his head to clear the painful thoughts, Inuyasha figured out where he would go. He'd stay long enough to fool his brother and hopeful cool his anger as well. The painful reminder, well, that would be buried like it always had been.

ooOOoo

The trio sat in shock as their friend tore out of the house and into the stormy night. Kagome tried to stop him but he brushed her off and went out into the night. Nearly in tears over the hurt look on Inuyasha's face, Kagome rounded on Miroku. Sango was already glaring daggers at her hapless boyfriend, his cheek blazing red from the slap she planted on his face. Taking a seat, Kagome couldn't help but wonder how such a fun evening went horribly wrong.

It had been her idea to do the gag gifts before the real gifts. She knew Inuyasha had a hard time with the holidays and getting him to agree to join them had been a major feat. The tragedy had made him wary of intimacy and Kagome often wondered if they would go any further than just friends. Now Miroku had totally messed things up and she knew Inuyasha would possibly never speak to them again.

"What possessed you?” Sango screamed. "Why would you him a fake pregnancy test when you knew all of the circumstances? What were you thinking?!”

Still rubbing his face, Miroku could only shrug. "It’s been 3 years. I thought he'd be over it by now."

Kagome shook her head. "You don't just 'get over' it, you moron!"
Grabbing her coat and the real gift she bought Inuyasha, Kagome headed out. "I'm going to find him and apologize. He must think we are heartless."

Sango tried to stop her. “You don't know where he is plus a storm is blowing in.”

Pulling the front door open, Kagome gasped as the cold wind hit her. “I have an idea of where he is and I have to go. If we don't fix this tonight, Inuyasha might cut us off for good".
ooOOoo

Arriving at the old shrine, Inuyasha went straight to the old tree. This was where he met Kagome, working a festival. It was her family’s shrine and she had grown up there but with passing of her grandfather, it was only open for festivals and sacred holidays. Inuyasha often came there to think or brood. He couldn't explain the pull of the place but he felt at peace there. It had been the one place he could think without needing to hide his feelings.

Kagome wasn’t surprised to find him in his spot on the biggest limb of Goshinboku. No matter the season, she had known where to find Inuyasha whenever he was troubled. She knew Inuyasha had watched her approach and her heart ached as she moved closer to the tree.

“Hey. I have the keys to the house. Why don’t we go inside and warm up?”

For a long moment, Kagome wondered if he was going to even acknowledge her presence but soon he jumped down beside her. Silently, they made their way to the house. Inuyasha walked and went to find to turn up the heater while Kagome found the tea and put a kettle on to boil. Spying a few packets of ramen, she set up a bowl as well, hoping Inuyasha would accept the peace offering.

They both sat quietly at the table, Inuyasha eagerly diving into the ramen while Kagome sipped her tea. It wasn’t until he finished did Kagome broached the subject of why they were there in the first place.

“I didn’t mean for everything to turn out like this.” Kagome started.

Inuyasha hung his head, his bangs hiding his eyes. “Do you know that Christmas reminds me that it’s my fault that Kikyou died?”

“How is it your fault? She left you. She decided she wanted to go to America and leave you behind. How is her death your fault?”

“If I had agreed to go with her, she would have left in a rage and had the accident. We wouldn’t have fought. She’d still be alive. I’d be…” Inuyasha’s voice trailed off, the words sticking in his throat.

“You’d be a father.” Kagome finished for him.

“Yea. The kicker was she didn’t even know she was pregnant. She would have been in America by the time she found out. I can’t help but wonder would she have even told me about it?”

Kagome reached across the table and held Inuyasha’s hand. “You can’t let the guilt of ‘what if’s’ do this to you. Sometime, you have to let it go and move on. The past is unchangeable but we can work on the future.”

Inuyasha snorted. “Have you been talking to Sesshomaru? “

Laughing, Kagome responded. “No, indeed! I know Sesshomaru thinks I’m trivial. He makes no secrets on how he feels about me.”

“It’s not that he doesn’t like you. It’s the fact, compared to demons, human lives are so short and he tends to feel humans and demons shouldn’t be together for that reason.” Inuyasha looked at her, blushing slightly. “Can I ask you a serious question?”

Kagome smiled. “Sure.”

“Have you ever been afraid that you’d mess things up so bad that you just ignore your feelings and pretend they don’t exist?”

Thoughtfully, Kagome replied. “No but I have held back on my feelings because I wasn’t sure if they would be returned and I didn’t want to be hurt.”

They stared at each other across the table, the pain, the loneness and fear vivid in their eyes.

Softly, Inuyasha asked. “What would it take to make you let your feelings go?”

Kagome didn’t speak for a moment. “What would it take to ease your guilt and be willing to give love another chance?”

“Maybe I have been looking for ways to give love another chance but I’ve been so afraid of ruining this chance that I choose to do nothing. I’m more afraid this person will slip away if I don’t, though. She won’t wait forever.” With a surprising smirk, Inuyasha reminded Kagome. “You didn’t answer my question.”

Kagome stood up and paced. “If I thought if I truly had a chance to be in his heart, I’d jump at the chance. Right now, I don’t know if he has room for me.”

Inuyasha came and stood in front of her, stopping her pacing. “For a long time, I let Kikyou’s death consume me. Then about two years ago, I saw this girl at a shrine, looking more alive than anyone I had seen in a long time. She dared to become my friend and I thought that was all I wanted. My brother told me I was an idiot for clinging to someone who had been walking away from me instead of paying attention to what was in front of me. Then a year ago, I realized that maybe I wanted more but I couldn’t let the past go. Tonight made me realize that my anger wasn’t going to bring her or my child back. Neither was my sadness.”

Kagome’s breath caught in her throat. She dared not read too much into what Inuyasha was saying. Buying herself some time to process what she was hearing, Kagome stepped back and reached into her bag.

“I bought you a gift.” As he took the package from her and sat at the table to open it, Kagome’s nerves took over. “It’s not anything fancy but I noticed you didn’t have one and, demon or not, I thought you needed one.”

Inuyasha pulled out a long greenish-yellow cashmere scarf. As he rubbed the soft material through his hands, he sincerely thanked Kagome.

“This is really nice. I promise I’ll wear it every day.” He walked up to her and pulled her close. Kagome melted into his arms and just enjoyed the moment. “Let’s go outside and enjoy the snow before it’s too bad.”

Hand in hand, the pair walked outside. Big flakes were falling but around the tree, it was peaceful. Once again, Inuyasha pulled Kagome close, this time to protect her from the cold. The stood there for the longest time, enjoying the solitude and the beauty of the snow. Kagome finally broke the silence.

“Inuyasha, I think I am ready if you are ready. I didn’t dare ask for anything more because I didn’t think you wanted that. I was content to be your friend.”

Running his fingers through Kagome’s dark hair, he thought about what she had said earlier. Was there room in his heart for Kagome? As he thought, Inuyasha realized the answer was yes. Kikyou had long vacated his heart, that spot having been replaced with anger and bitterness. Since getting to know Kagome, he hadn’t realized that spot was slowing being cleaned out and ready for a new tenant.

“I’m more than ready and it’s time. I need you to help me. I need you to show me how to love again.”

Kagome pulled back to see Inuyasha’s face and shivered, not from cold, but from the sincerity and emotion in his eyes.

“I can and I will. I promise.”

Their lips met and the heat from long dormant passions surged forward, making them completely forget about the cold. The need for air finally forced them apart.

“Wow.” Kagome mumbled against Inuyasha’s chest. Stroking her hair, Inuyasha silently agreed. As the heart died away, the cold reasserted itself with a sharp pickup in the wind.

“Do you think Sango and Miroku are still at your apartment?”
Kagome frowned. “More than likely. Sango would wait to make sure I got back ok. I can call.”

Inuyasha took her hand and pulled her towards the shrine steps. “Don’t call. I have a friend to pound and I don’t want him to get a head start running.”

Kagome laughed. After a rough start, it seemed things would be okay, at least with her and Inuyasha. Miroku, on the other hand, was getting ready to have a whole world of problems.
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